Your mercy endures forever

Psalm 136 has "your mercy endures forever" 26 times. There are 26 lines in this Psalm, so with every line, the psalmist finishes with "your mercy endures forever." With every little line of thanksgiving, the writer gives praise to God because God's mercy endures forever.

In Lamentations 3:23, says that they (mercies) are new every morning. With the breath of a new day, God extends mercy towards me a sinner. God grants that I would live. I think one of the biggest acts of faith that we can make is to go to sleep. By faith, we trust that we will wake up in the morning. This is why I put such a huge emphasis on sleep...hahah. I like to sleep because I want my faith to grow.

But think about it. When we go to sleep, we hope that our bodies will do as we expect them to do and wake up in the morning. We hope that the last image that see isn't another person being engaged on Instagram. We hope that the Little Caesar's we had won't be the last meal that we ever had. We hope that our bodies don't shut down because of that hard racquetball game. We hope that the last conversation we have isn't an argument with a loved one.

2014 was a hard year. Well, the last semester of it was. So glass half full/empty. Because the last semester was so difficult, 2014 was not my favorite year. It started off great. But as it dragged on, I became more distant to people because of turmoil. I started unconsciously shutting people out of my life because of busy-ness. I stopped communicating with friends and family. I was super unhappy. And I was unhappy with my inability to fix it. I tried to get busy. I tried to occupy my time. I tried to redeem wasted time. I journaled, blogged, wrote, and everything that my counselor taught me how to do.

But nothing really worked because I wasn't able to fix it.

Then I was reminded, and this tends to happen during trials and tribulation: God's mercy endures forever.

I am not in control of my well-being.

I am not in control of my future.

I am not in control.

I'm hardly even in charge.

2014 was supposed to be a fresh start for me. Because of my scare in 2013, I wanted to make some positive adjustments to my life. Unfortunately though, I began going back to my old habits. Shutting down. Shutting people out. Getting unnecessarily stressed. Getting caught up in my own worries and concerns.

2015, I want to constantly say every morning that God's mercy endures forever. Every single day, I'll wake up excited because God has given me another day to live, and for that, I will sing God's praises.
I don't want to finish this year at the same place as I did at 2014. I want to keep this momentum going. But the only way that I can is that I let God complete the good work. I am not in control. I am not in charge. Thanks be to God that my well-being and my future are in the hands of the One who created my life.