I'm a mess

The problem with pride is that it hides our insecurities inside. It masks our inabilities and tries to make them more put together than they really are. But if I want a relationship with the Father, I have to recognize the fact that I cannot have pride. I can boast in the Lord, yes, but I should not have to hide my insecurities. Where I am weak, God will strengthen. Where I am broken, He will renew. God will cleanse me through and through. The thing, though, is that I have to understand my depravity. I have to understand that God wants to go into every one of my cavities and fill them with His love. I have to understand that God alone can help me. I cannot by my own actions save myself. It is by realizing my sin nature that I can see Jesus as Savior. For a man who does not see the err of his ways will not repent for he feels he has no need for grace. But I know that I need a Redeemer. I know that Christ alone helps and guides. I just had to realize that in order for God to increase in my life, my rights, my privileges, and selfishness had to decrease. God has to move in my brokeness. But I have to see that I am a mess. I confess that Jesus is Lord of all and can heal me of my pride and selfishness.