Let me fail

I'm scared to death of not being successful.

 Not that my life has been a mess but still. 

I'm so used to things going right and I've become accustomed to this way of life. 

I know that these next few years are supposed to be the times when I try new things and flap my wings, but I'm scared to take that risk.

 I'm scared to get outside of this comfort zone because it's something that I've created. 

You were definitely involved. 

But I feel like all my life has happened so smoothly that I don't want it to go into disarray so quickly. 

I like things like this. 

I like things like that. 

But that's not really faith because I'm trusting in the things I see and more importantly I believe in me. So lord, help me to put all my hopes and dreams in your hands.

 I'm having difficulty even just admitting that I want and need your help, but I can't do this by myself. 

I need you to strip me of my vanities and my self-securities. 

I want to take big risks with you. 

I know that I can't do anything within my own strength. 

I need a team. 

I need a savior.

 I need you Lord.

 Come and flood my heart and fill my head with your thoughts and your ways. 

I want to surrender it all to you. 

Day by day. 

It's not going to happen overnight but God remove all my pride. 

Help me come alive in you. 

To walk onto the waters without fear of drowning. 

I don't want to let you down. 

So that's why I work. 

I don't want to let down any of the people who have put their trust in me. 

I have a fear of failure.

 But I know that each failure makes me realize my humanity and that I so desperately need you. 

So let me fail God so that I might draw near to you.