Answer me.

Is it okay if I say how I feel? The more I get out the more I heal. 

I know you're a big God and you can handle all the stuff I throw at you. I'll preface with my love for you and then go from there. I can't seem to find you anywhere. 

I look and I call and I cry and I shout, and I still cannot reach you. 

Maybe you're trying to teach me something, but I'm a concrete thinker and I need something real.
I need something I can grab onto not some silly ideal. 

Not to say that the things you are teaching me are fake, but I need you to give me a break. 

Cut me some slack and give me some cold hard facts. 

It can't be the prayers I'm praying or the words I'm saying because to me they seem pretty great. 

Or maybe that's just some false feeling, but I've been thinking that I would like to hear anything. 

Something. 

It's better than nothing which seems to be all I'm getting. And if I were a betting man I think I can wager that you're going to intervene soon. 

At least that's the hope that I'm holding onto the fact that you are The Lord who hears my cries. You don't ignore me. 

You restore me. 

So God, give me a sense of direction and clarity. 

You've brought me here and you'll keep on leading me. 

Fill my mouth with the words you want me to say. If you want me follow you, I'll do it today right now. 

Anywhere.

To the ends of the earth. But I just need you to tell me. 

Don't keep me in the dark. 

I know life isn't easy but it's getting harder and harder to believe and maybe that's on me. 

Nothing seems to be working out and I don't mean to be so filled with doubt but you led me here. 

You were the one who called me and consecrated me and chose me. 

The least that you could do is answer me. 

Blessed be your name forever. 

In the valleys and on the mountains, your glory will be revealed.

 And my destiny with you is sealed, and I put all my trust in you. 

Help me out. 

I promise I won't let you down. 

At least I hope I can use the talents you gave me well, and I hope I can represent you to tell others around me how great you are. 

You are high and mighty and worthy to be praised. Oh Lord in heaven, bless your holy name.