Oh God. Oh God.

Lord, teach me how to pray. Sometimes I don't even what to say. But your spirit groans with me and then I see things more clearly. I see things the way you intend them to be. God, let my life be a constant prayer to you. Let it be pure incense burned for you. Anoint my words. Anoint my thoughts. God, I surrender them all to you. This is just a life. I am but a vessel. But let me pour it all out for you because without you I am nothing. I've done my own thing. I've lived my own life and it was unfulfilling, but now you can have me. Now you have my entire being. Listen to my prayers. Hear my cry. That I would have a fire by night and cloud by day. That I would be under your care and that my decisions would honor you. God, I am yours and you are mine. I love you with my whole heart. And I'll love you until I'm an old fart. When my hair is gray and all my youth has faded away, you will give me life. The closer I get to death, the closer I get to spending eternity with you. So as I live my life until then, until that hour that you call me home, let me bring others with me. Let my light shine for others. Let me show love for my brothers. Let my words speak life. Let my thoughts be right. Let me show your love in tangible ways to those around me. That I am only a messenger of your peace. That I can somehow bring others to realizing who you are, that is my prayer. That's all I care about. Not my own strength but only by your grace will I finish this race and bring people to their rightful place with you. Let these words be true.