God's business

Im in a little bit of a bind and it feels like I'm losing my mind. I feel stressed out all the time. I can't seem to shake this feeling like I've got something to do and so I always am on edge. So my heart is pacing. My thoughts are racing. And I guess it's time to face my fears. I'm in for a couple hard years. I'm in for a tough journey. I never thought it would be easy but I also never thought it would be this hard. I feel so much attack from the enemy and I want him off my back. This is my calling. My vocation. This is my passion. My wiring. This is how god designed me. And this will be how he'll refine me. I've got to go through this process. I've got to sweat a little more. I've got to fail some and learn some and move on. I'm in for a treat. But man, isn't god neat? He's so awesome in his uncanny way of working things out. He's so awesome in rearranging my puzzle pieces to fit together. This is God's plan. He's going to work it out. I believe that. I have to. I have nothing else to believe in. I have nothing to hold onto. Everything I've done is nothing compared to what God is going to do. What I've done before has gotten me to where I am now, but it's minuscule in comparison to where God is going to take me. This is my life. This is my journey. This is just a blip in god's amazing redemption story.  And this is how I'm going to live it. I'm going to let him take control. I'm going to surrender my life to him. And I'm going to help people. I'm going to be a Christ follower and I'm going to help others follow him to because I want the story to go on. God wants the story to go on. And that's a lot more important than my wants and desires. So I might be a lite stressed out. And I might be a little confused. But god is in the business of helping his children, and he's going to take care of me