God, use me in whatever way seems best. I don't know. I don't really care. I just want to serve you in whatever way I can. I know you have a master plan, an overarching story, an arch that I'm part of.
I just want to be in that. I want to see what you are doing and take part in that.
Sometimes I forget that all my life is in your hands. I try to make my own plan.
My own idea of how life should be. Instead of just surrendering to you. I need to remember you. I need to remind myself that you are taking care of it all.
When I call you will answer. When I fall you will carry me. You take me into your loving arms and take care of my worries.
My anxiousness. My stress. My confusions. My haziness.
God, you are so much bigger than my doubts. You have it all figured out. And here I am trying to make sense of it all instead of just letting you do your thing. I'll find my rest under your wings. I'll let you take me wherever you need me to go.
Because this I know, you love me. You always have. You always will. And that's enough. Your loving kindness and your righteousness and justice and mercy are immutably inseparable.
You are God. And you are the God who hears my heart. I want to do the things of you. I want to be molded by you. Formed by you. Reborn in you. Jesus, you are making all things new.
So Holy Spirit why don't you breathe new life into me? Breathe your wind into my lungs so I can pour my praises back to you. I love you, God. I love you, Lord Jesus.
I surrender all to you. Take care of me. Turn not your face from me. Listen to me. Hear me. Love me. I know you do. I just need an outpouring of your love into my life. Transform me to do your works. Reconcile me to yourself and to my neighbor. And to my enemy. Help me to love the unlovable. Help me to reach the unreachable. I want to go out into all the nations to proclaim your great and matchless name.
My YHWH. There is no other way but you.
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