You make me brave

You make me brave. 

What else can I say? 

I have no strength. 

I have no hope.

 All of it is in you.

I can't do anything without you. 

You are my rock and redeemer and I find my meaning in you. 

Oh God, I don't know what I did to deserve you and I know I didn't. 

It was all you.

 You showed me mercy. 

You gave me steadfast love. 

It pierced through my darkness. 

It shattered my fears. 

When everything else was fading away, your presence and your light shined clear. 

I love you, Lord. 

I love you so much. 

And I'm not good enough for it.

 I'm just so thankful and grateful and hopeful that your love can push me forward.

 I can easily become so used to love. 

So used to your blessings.

 But you call me to be a blessings to others. 

I wouldn't be able to do that on my own. 

It's your love that pushes me to love.

 I don't want to do that.

 I couldn't. 

I know my wirings and personality and it all shows that I am self centered. 

I am me-focused. 

But your love pushes me and motivates me to love others. 

It makes me brave to walk out in faith and to help those around me. 

Lord, I can't do it on my own. 

I'm selfish, I know, and I would serve only myself if it weren't for you.

 Your grace. 

Your peace. 

Your mercy transforms me into the person I should be.

 I could be spiraling in my own demise. 

Falling down into my own selfishness. 

But your love. 

Your love is greater. 

And it calls me to do greater. 

To love more. 

To do more. 

To be more than I can ever be. 

Thank you, Jesus, for loving me and pushing me into the person I should be.

 Your love is better than anything else in this world.

 And I can only do love motivated and captivated by your love.