Just looking around

What is the proper response to this overwhelming love? I know what I'm doing isn't right because I haven't made a complete change in my life. Why do I have one foot in the door and one in the other? God this is hard. God this is tough. I should be giving more because I feel what I'm doing Is not enough. I don't want to get caught in legalism but I know I'm not doing everything I need to. I see homeless children and crying women. I see starving brothers and mistreated lovers. I see broken hearts on a daily basis but I do my best to forget their faces. How am I changing the world when I continue the status quo? Even though this is the best I know. I could be doing more. I could be loving the world. Instead I'm selfish. Instead I focus in myself. Instead I do what I can to further my own interests and disregard the needs of those around me. I know I can only do so much but I use that as a crutch to say I can't help at all. Now I can see man's downfall. It's time for Christians to rise up and be different instead of adjusting to culture.